chris’ blog

today was a day filled with work around the house. mainly tidying up, unpacking (from church last night), drinking coffee, exercise and probably a fair share of timewasting.

by chance, i called mum and she said bel and rod were having dinner at their house, so i should come too. which i did. it’s funny, whenever i go back home, sheda (the cat), always gives me this confused but welcoming apraisal; sort of like his memory has a dream like quality to it. which is really what it feels like for me whenever i go back there.

and every time i do go back i cease their child that little bit more, and tend toward just being this rude bugger that comes and eats their food. it is nice, they’re more like people i know, than mum and dad. i forget that sometimes. though it’s not desirable to under-estimate people, it’s nice being pleasantly suprised.

last night after church the gang all went round to hanna’s for monopoly and wine. i don’t know if it was the combination, but it sure did bring out sheer ruthlessness and hatred. i loved it. mainly because me and bentley won.

ebay is such a great time waster.

Tiredness fuels empty thoughts
I find myself disposed
Brightness fills empty space
In search of inspiration
Harder now with higher speed
Washing in on top of me — damien rice

mmm, so sleepy. it’s quite appropriate; i often put damien on when i draw the blinds and have a kip.

i had a dream last night that i went to u2 and got inside the elipse, but i had forgotten my camera.

No one in his right mind stares straight at the sun on a clear and cloudless day.

Job 37:21 (The Message)

Staring at the sun
I’m not the only one
Who’s happy to go blind

U2

often peoples memories live simply through their recipes they leave behind.

i’m going to attempt the city 2 surf for the first time this year. and i’m going to try and do it in under an hour. which will be a good goal to work towards. and i reckon i could easily achieve it.

today i started “intensive jobsearch training”. intense, yes; training, we’ll i’m not sure about that part. it’s a strange atmosphere at such a setting. most people there are timid or underqualified or both. but me, well, i guess i’m just lazy. it’s not desirable to be the centre of attention in that situation, more than the fact that i’m the one getting pressed the most questions and hypotheticals, the counsellors there just look at me as if “why don’t you have a job? are you just lazy?”.

it does scare you into wanting a job, thats for sure. so who knows, by the end of this course i could just have one.